An Early Big Christmas Pressy on MCSB AGM 2008 :P

"East MeEt West" is the Theme of MCSB AGM2008. Its held in Audees(Aunty Kat's Son's place). i am happy that i get to sit with this bunch of young people from the MS Team. Thanks God at least i don't feel out of place :P Haha... and these are my Team in MCSB...One big mistake i make during this event was after all the advise and tutorial Andy helped me on my outfit haha... i still got my "Hanbok" wrongly tied. Shame Shame lah... :( the Korean Lady told me .... hai.... What to do.. See here is a pic where i do a Post with Francis after we are asked to do a Catwalk on the Best Dress Competition. And Guess who win?
Here is the winning Couple..... DRUM ROLLLL... ROlll...... ---> Mike and Connnie :P Here is another nice photo of me and the AMD team :)....

Here look look.. .Brig's special Tailor Red Dress for the event!! wow...

And here is the climax of the nite where everybody is waiting for.... thats the draw for the LCD TV. Mike pick up 5 Names. I was so scared coz you either get the TV or a Christmas Card. So first one was Amanda, Me, PEter, Antony, another is from the MS team but I forgotten his name hehe... too excited then. So scared the moment as Amanda said to open the Card together... either u get congrad or merry christmas. Here is a picture of us ready to open the card together... remember either TV or card..

Feeling unbelievable and making sure... Amanda Checked all the card before Anoucing the result.....
And here is my big Christmas Pressy with MCSB GM and 2008 Sport Club Chairman :P ... Thank You MCSB.... and Thanks God for blessing my family with this Christmas & New Year :P

2nd PSFC Attempt

On 16th Dec i had my follow up PSFC class with LS. Well due to the encouragement and critics in my blog, i had take it positively give my self a fresh start and do my best.

well this round, i felt i am more open about the teaching and i am glad that following Angie's way of teaching guided me in the right track to be a better teacher in the PSFC class. Its tougher than i taught but well guess what? I have gone through it well. And this round i felt i am a more confident teacher. I will do my repertoire planning even better too after this training. Not just that in fact learning to do planning for my other students as well. I felt as a teacher thats what i should do.

Kambadee Ezekiel, Andrew, Pui Teen, Selina :) lets continue to grow. Its not wrong to be creative with things but learning to be better inline with Yamaha school's PSFC Goals is important as Yamaha instructor :)

Holiday Date and Plans

Cameron Heiglands Holiday?
Another Beach and Island Holiday?

or Makan, Makan Holiday??

Whatever izzit its time to do more planning ;P heheheh... well can be going to redang? or perhentian? Sabah or anywhere it can be....

These are the date which can be squeeze since have commitment in music school. Hate it lah. so unflexible and can't move at all. Potential days who have long holiday + weekend for 2009 are ....drum.... rolll... hehehe...

01 - 04 Jan (4 days) - Which is the NEW YEAR 2009 but not advisable (expensive)
24 - 27 Jan (4 days) - Chinese New Year
07 - 09 Feb (3 days) - Thaipusam
01 - 03 May (3 days) - Labour Day
06-07 June (2 days) - Agong B'day
29 - 31 Aug (3 days) - Merdeka Day
19 - 22 Sept (4 days) - Hari Raya
27 - 29 Nov (3 days) - Hari Raya Haji
25 - 27 Dec (3 days) - Christmas :)

Well.... :) start planning friends :)

Lately Reunion of High School Friend - Angeline

Its been awhile i met Angeline :) Still the same Angeline petite and cute but with great complexion. She now work in a stressful line describe by herself. She once one of my close friend hmmm time really flies and guess what we never get to even have lunch and keep in touch. Shame on us man.... Those moment we have during school was fun. Angeline to me is always the gal who like to be beautiful. Aren't that what most gals and woman want? heheh... now u know why she carried a great complexion now. Must be her being hard working :) Please don't get me wrong. She is just like me don't like to carry heavy make up hahah :) hmmm that's one of the reason why we don't age so much hahha :)

Lately i been trying my b'day pressy - SKII product. Hmmm sadly i think this expensive product just don't suit me. Its been my second Attempt and i taught its just maybe the 1st attempt the product expired. Hmm but i guess i am wrong. That product resulted i got those small bump around my fore head, my chin, a little on my cheek as well. So sad lah. now have to find something to treat it. Instead of getting those youthful fair smooth skin the product promises. DARN. hate it big time ..

Angeline had intro me of her product. Kinda feel moved to get but let my face cool down first--- back to mild product for me.

Its been years or what Andy used to say Yown haha... since i last seen her. Now she is with a Math and Science Professor teaching in USM. wow... scary title huh? well wish her all the luck and be happy always.;)

Today we are planning lunch again hehe.. last week we had Japanese.. The place where i had my first date with my darling beey, mind that really bring back funny memories where we 2 ordered that much food that we stuff our self really full haha. Ok Hmmm today i have to be in time so i can catch her and drop her back to prevent Gossip hai .. i wish work places don't have such Politic or Gossip ... it wil make work more productive and more meaningful to life. Well i guess satan do that to make us feel the ech. hehe but I don't care coz i know God is with me. And i will try my best to get out of their mouth but seems like Ms B bad mouth me so much in this company that is impossible to do. But again God is always greater i am sure he put that obsticle for me to be stronger in future. ;)

Quote of the day

"Let not DOUBT and FEAR take seed and grow into a tree"

I agree on this... infact bad things shouldn't be set aside and after time u can see trouble/frustration/bad things just don't go away... infact it have grown ...

Example if a marriage already have doubt in it ... you need to fix fast if not it will grow worse.
But such things can't be fixed through one side it takes 2 .. alot of compromising.. love and understanding, giving more than taking, willing to change certain things to make the end mets... and that alot of patience, sacrificing of time, things u love, monetory, hobbies, need to be put in. But all that doesn't work if ur heart dies. Coz it all depends how important the other party in ur life, such as does it help improving u, improving ur life, ur thinking, learning curve, motivate u to be a better person, encourage u to reach that dream u always wanted? or being with that person teared down ur life?? make u feel low esteen, make u feel useless, make u feel worthless... just like what pastor leslie said Critise, contempt(puting urself high place than the other party), being defensive, stonewalling --- all these add Suphuric Acid into the relationship... it will slowly kill it.

Think about it for awhile and decide...
We all deserve to be love. And if we our self don't love and respect our self who will? On and on these hurting words from the other party just tear me down. i need to feel love, not by gesture by even words that make me feel love. Whats the use of hugs if u know unpredictability time u get hurt? The scar just don't goes temporary... over time the scar just gets deeper.... and having that over and over again just hurt so much... I love myself i don't want to be feeling useless, unworthy, lousy and being hurt on and on again. I am just giving time to let that person i love understand what i been through if that doesn't change i can't walk the iternity road, its just too painful to bare. By the Grace of God Please lifted it off me i pray.

Conflict

Today is a beautiful day. Give my hair a nice wash and start a brand new day. As i look up i see blue blue sky which remind me about the sermon Dr Kelvin Tean shared which represented God's 10 Commandment and Jesus Righteousness toward his children. Hmm.. Seeing my Boss all Cracking up trying to set up things prep for the new Telemarketing Team which we going to set up. I wish i can be the able to do something help or part of it so i can earn more and i can have new job task and learn new things ... so i am praying about it. After a sit down brain storming and giving him more ideas and explain to him how things work he left the office ... Me.. hehe.. can lepak little bit with my friend online till haha.. my bf called. Hmmm another STORM again.


I really fedup about it. Why this have to happen to me. Hmm have to deal with the one u love which won't accept your ideas, won't explain to me further when i get him wrong rather get fedup straight away of me and trow me heart broken words and give me the wall or being defensive. Can u imagize in it? of all people in the world the one u love the most give u this??? What is love i ask myself again... I so hurt suddenly when he talk to me "Beey u really can't help anything but just know how to talk alot!!" Walau my heart straight away shettered to pieces as my eyes potted with water just going to drip. ARGH.... its just not the first time he did that to me.... i just can't stand it... why i being sincere to him in all things and yet he can't be a little bit kinder to me with his word? GOSH... can't stand it i just told him why not u find someone that can help u and don't talk so much... just get urself another gf.... haha.. and he taught i am joking. Though i talk to him with my hand pressing on my heart even it hurts i have to tell him this. what is the use of a partner in life which can't play the part?? well straigth away when i listen to that centence i felt like there is nothing i can do rite and just "TROUBLED HIM" with me talking too much!!! i don't know about him.. but to me i felt like what the use i am with such person which i can't raise him up but tumble him down. There come more picture fleshing in my mind wondering how in the world he can tolerate me to live under 1 roof for the rest of his life.

Can't take it lah... HOW? IF this is a test that God have given me. Let me tell u this relationship is the tougher of all that i had. Hmmm "Communication" which is the most important thingy in any relationship yet in this relationship is the most challenging thingy i go through.

I am sorry i have to stop the conversation coz i just feel like the more we continue talking i think i will start to rain. hahaha.... Another round of conflict and learning curve. Well take it possitve and take it wrong. Life goes on, but if i can change it i hope communication can go easier with him without getting hurt. Just plan sincere chat with no barrier.

Birthday 2008

Wooi.. haha.. its 5 days after my b'day dee... guess what? there is still bilated greetings... haha... Well better late then never i guess :) This year b'day is least of what i expected so i am kinda reluctant to post but well anyway here goes :P

Here is 2008 Pressy i get :P hehehe.... from parent, darling and close friend :P hehhe... Thanks all :) Muak love u all

Uncle William his's family and friends visit 6 - 8 Dec 08

Last weekend Mom's friend uncle William (from UK), aunty Warna (from Thailand), and Jenny Ren (From xiamen China -actual name Ren Siu Ching) came to visit. They came not just in 3 but with Uncle William's Nephew's and his family from Singapore. Alot of visitor means traveling a little bit troublesome but fun. We also celebrated Uncle William's Nephew's Wife's birthday, and here is some picture :)

Getting Ready to enjoy food :)

Me and Jenny

Yummy Green Tea Cake :)

Birthday Girl with Family.

Anyway, i am always excited about Uncle William's Visit, his a man with firm words and alot of knowledge and know alot of top people around the world so i love to listen to him talk about all the big shot and things they do and get to learn one or two. His also easily minggle with the youth and teen, even with his nephew's kids in their teen he also can click and joke around. really fun. This round he went to play Golf with his friend Dr Chong Lee Kong, wow.. i don't know his house so big ... almost pengsan when they point to the white mansion and tell me about the big house. Coz i just went to visit him once but in his MBF tower's Appartment, truely a very nice windy place. Warna said its a house with lots of hole hehehe.. But his place is nice. You know what i like about his house? his nice Massage chair hehehe.... so comfy hehe... best hehe :P

Anyway... this round uncle William encourage me to learn Golf haha: P and talk little or 2 about flying golf ball haha... and which places are nice :P maybe see how time can be arrange and God's wills i might go to ingolf to learn a little or 2. Will no harm to learn since its a sosial game who u can met lots of people and yet exercise :) not bad huh? Can be my next year planing.

Yesterday i also have to sacrifice my holiday since Yee forgotten about our meeting and Angie is not feeling well, i opt to bring the 2 gals (Jenny & Warna) with my mom around. Hmmm we bump into an aunty bringing a kid and an old lady wanting to walk to Penang Road from Khoo Kongsi. hai since have to wait for my visitor to come back from their sight seeing, i offered to drive them. :) well long time didn't do nice things.. good to give a helping hand :) The world really need more. Today, nice people always being take advantages on so less people will do it. Just don't want to take risk. But it does feel good to be able to help.

There goes, another of my holiday... :( but had a good meal with uncle and family and friends in Forum. Not bad food. Big fish, was the main big topic "so big". I dobt its cheap :P. The meal is not so big deal the most important is getting to know them more and enjoy the fellowship :) best of all the host enjoy the food too. Great ya... hehe.. :) Well Lost a day of Holiday in exchange with spending time with people ...no bad aferall :)

Not expecting on my B'day

Tomorrow is my b'day. I never taught anyone will ever notice i stop blogging. Well at least 2 people does and from their feedback hmmm they care about me ... thanks guys. Appreciate you guys as my friends.

Yup i am not going to expect anything this b'day.... no dinner, or lunch celebration haha.. friends that are very dear are all busy with their schedule and as for me i have a full day work from 8:30 - 9pm.... thats about what b'day is this year.

Well i do feel a little bit down as being one self would dreams of having lots of lots of friends and wanting all those surprises and yup that conclude b'day is important to me. And i appreciate my bf taking the time to pick up a gift for me and raping them up one by one with gold and silver rapper with dark beautiful ribbons. thats sweet rite? hehe... but he sort of gave it to me in the wrong place and time and it kinda blow the excitement and guess what? silly me, i forgotten to give him that big hug and kiss haha to thank him for that... hmm i'll remember to do it surprising him next time seeing him. hehe.

I never imagine how important emotional inteligent is until last weekend seminar by Pastor Leslie and his wife. And realising how empty i am... and lonely do make me feel down. I never taught of what my boss said affect life... hmm now i realised how important it is to love urself, value the things u love, and care, giving that special time for urself and spending time with urself. Just Yourself. Hmmm what makes me who i am was all because how less my family care and focus on me but i can break that cycle by learning to appreciate myself and learning about myself. Hmmm i guess that start from Last monday, where i try to take the effort to greet my coleague regardless what i will expect from them. Cool face? Smile? neglecting face? or don't care face? don't care.... if someone need help be there and learn to care about what happen to their life. one thing i haven't acchieve and i what i want to do is build this relationship with Jesus further where to spend more time reading my bible and doing my devotion. Keeping a prayer journal is next in my list which i have again one thingy left there... Pray for me guys. I have more to work on myself. Support me if u can ya. I will try my best :)

U know what, out of 2 marriage 1 fails even divorce doesn't happen marriage can be having 2 people living parallel life but not connecting and growing. Its so scary when i heared of this. But there is hope. I don't know those couple who go to church together do have lower rate of divorce, and those couple who pray together also have even less. the statistic goes to 1150 change of divorce. Hmmm Family is the most important thingy in mylife. I didn't grow up in a perfect family and i too have myshare of defects from where i come from. But remembe friends it doesn't matter where u from the most important is ur willingness to change. and for things to change u have to change first and it always start from ourself.

So this new year, i wanted to focus more on myself so i can be a better person to be able to give more for people around me.