BonOdori Experience

19 July 08 is BonOdori day for Penang people. Before 6pm people starting to come to Explanade. After few patience round to get a parking space we started our quest to take some nice photo and enjoy the occasion since its Beey's belated b'day ... :)
When we arrived there are already crowds of people around the stage and alot of photographer with really really crazy gadget camera from Canon, Nikon SLR's to even Smaller camera. I took some really lousy pictures haha... but beey one was great compare to mine haha :) I will post some below hehe.
Beey really enthusiasm to get pictures thus i didn't get to see Japanese product and those fun on catching fish and buying small ball water balloon :P hhehehe.
Me and Beey also went to get food hehe.. its so pack and trying to finish all the coupon is a challenged coz alot of the stall are pack. At last we did it and get ready to go home ... as we reach my car there is another no brainer person park beside me which make my car stuck in the middle of 3 cars. DARN can't get out... so i was force to wait for the owner... we went to QE2 to take some air and taught of getting a drink but hmm the environment is not my taste so we get back to the car and waited somemore and suddenly the sky lite up with Fireworks wow... its romantic just to watch it haha.. after that we waited somemore (Really tested my patience, i almost wanting to break the glass dee..) at last the man jump in the car and drove off i think his scared that i will kill him haha :P Anyway here is some of the photos :) enjoy...

Lady from Japan with her traditional wear!

SRL Camera in action... see how cute the mask is :)

Beey and me all mess up as we sweat so much as its so pack.

Force to smile haha... actually was really angry coz a no brainer park his car beside mine and i can' get out!!

QEII pier!!

Small Feelings

Today the sky seems gloomy. As for me... it feels like loosing a friend. But well just he himself said people comes and people goes. Hmmm But we all are still human missing someone when you know you won't see or hear them is just being human. Last nite i wrote him a email to say goodbye haha :P so funny. Hmmm but to him he sign off his last email as (training to me your friend) I wondered what does it means.

I just can't wait to go for the 30 Aug trip with beey, Henry and Moon. the routine of life suddenly make me feel weighted .. maybe influence by Jorine's unhappiness. Seeing my friends some unhappily married, some going through divorce i felt so affraid, Coz if i married to Sam, i am going to miss my parent and friends in Penang, my life and career ... u can say everything. He better make me happy haha :P just joking. Hmmm.. but its a lot to give up for to be with someone who come alternative week (i know its hard work to make that effort) but someone who really cares and love me. I wish he will develope the love of intelecture. But its very hard to change a person in this area. I will leave it to God.

Feelings comes and goes But a true friend will always stand with you no matter where he/she is. hope you guys have a good weekend ahead.

Lifes up and down

I go through ups and down this week... Going through founding a new friend who such in a way understands me and enjoy writing... getting to know him was a real special experience. Just make me realised how in the way i met such person and why God put him on my door step? why is the purpose of such ? Hmmm and as i was enjoy his friendship suddenly his company refrain their employee from internet usage so from today i won't hear from him anymore. Hmmm little bit disapointed.

This week i go to visit a friend too J, to help her in her exam but unfortunely it turn up to hearing her complaints on her unhappy marriage, her unhappy teaching career, her life and everything. Hmmm and she ask me not to get married rather stay single. PUZZLE

Due to sunday disagreement with my darling, it makes my monday so blue too... sometimes i wish he can understand that i am really sensitive and need alot of teder loving care.

+ dealing with my God Sis loosing a dog .. hmm really sad.

Hmmm and tomorrow will be my last day teaching my PS class.. hmmm going to miss all the 6 children. :) this month was indeed a wonderful experience jumping and playing and singing with them. Love them all. Want to take pictures about them hehe :P

......What a life..... little blue week i guess... i hope this week will turn out to be better as it reach weekend :)

Doing the Rite thing@!@

Have u gone through a depressing stage and as you cry yourself to sleep... you look up and ask God some question you wondered he cares? Well i know he does, thats why i can talk to him when i am so down or up or instant or anywhere i am. And i understand that he will answer me in his time and space.

As i was struggle with ?'s in my head, wondering why my bf react to things that matter less ... i ask God ... is this the man he have plans for me? Pastor told me once - Lisa you be happy with a believer... and his sermon ... if u wondering which is God sent, God sent will always be a believer... but sometimes its not so. It could be someone who don't believe in him yet he have sent you to convert him. Of course everythings is in God's hand.

Anyway... i met his nice person who i add from facebook... never taught he turn out very sincere. His like everything in him. his crazy at times, funny with alot of humor, imaginative tend to picture beautiful pictures... day dream you can say, and very straight foward, his very strategic in his way of doing so u can expect his a well plan person hmmm educated too, best of all he likes to correspond and i felt i can just be straight and open to him and yet he respect me. Hmm But... his not a christian and he don't believe in God. Its nice to have him as friends and i make it clear to him but his strategically plans make me pictures more than friends expectation from him. And i felt its the rite way to do thats to tell him i am committed to someone. Ya... eventually i risk loosing a friend. It feels like when i am happy opening a present ... i have to give it away coz i am not worthy of. Hmmm its kinda break my heart but there is nothing i can do about it. of course i can say nothing about my commitment and go on opening this present but ... hmm...

I haven't get a mail from him yet. My friend said if he didn't write such friend you shouldn't need to be upset about coz his just not worthy as a friend~ just someone who have an intention over me. Hmmm... still i miss his mail.

Life goes on.

Beeys b'day ... :)

Its so unfortunely that my ATM card been jam in the machine. Hmmm... That nice lady who make beautiful cupcakes can't make it coz she have a wedding reservation.... and i have no cash to get my darling a cake. Hmmm with all the aniversary cakes ... in this occation first time i fail to get him a cake. Big deal for me eventhough he insist its ok. Hmm and he not fancy sweet things nowadays. Eventually he insist me to not spend lavishly on his big day... so i bring him to New World park and we will dine in any restaurant that he please :) so we end up dinning in Mizi again :) hmmm and we end up order 2 sets and we end up getting ourself too full haha :P of course i get to pay it with my credit card.. thats how plastic money is for :P Here is some nice photo of the food we take and the fun we had. :) enjoy everyone :)

Me and my Beey enjoying our meal :)

This is the onion soup i had :P Hmmm very herb feelings very tasty :P

Beey's pumkin soup :P very tasty too, i tried that one spoon only and beey finished all haha.. thats how tasty it is :P

Fish Gorden Blue :P wow.. so thick fish man... make u feel like worth to eat :P when i finish a half of it i already quite full. hehe... very nice.

Yummy club sandwish... wow.. so beautiful. when i show it to Jess she was like i want that. Hmm actually i have the intention to temp her to eat someting coz she was upset and had no mood to eat. Mission fail... eventually she still don't feel like eating. :P

I had a great time celebrate beey great day :) be happy always ooh beey... :) luv u lots.

Noodle Station @ e-Gate

wasn't quite happy yesterday so I dated a friend out for supper. Its so kind of him to turn up since i am to tired to drive up to pick him up .. he still turn up. I haven't really have my dinner so i order a bowl of noodle spicy :P for sharing :P

He order a nice cold drink which i don't know what it was. hehe... looks nice though .... :P

And i had a big big cup of mango sherbet with alot of fruits swimming in it :P taste quite yummy but hmmm its too sweet and i can't finished it.

All along the nite i been talking about my unhappiness haha... and this friend just listen and play some jokes on it :P haha... can't imagine a person can change so much when time goes :P anyway do visit the noodle station, support audrey's noodle shop :) but do double check the order with the server, i think all of them are malay they kinda easily mistaken ur orders :)

Whatever Happends - Have to be Happy!!

" If you have something to do, someone to love, and something to hope for, every day becomes a celebration"

Hmmm... how true is that????? Hmmm last week Friday my best friend Sis lost her dog. Its so sad. realising i am not good in talking and my phone don't have a sen credit, i didn't call though i felt i should. I too feel really really sad about this. Hmmm coz the last time i saw ah Gal was last week. I am happy i make that journey up another side of the island to see her. Coz i believe no matter what happen if someone dear is gone u do whatever also not a use coz the person won't be able to know or feel anymore. Hmmm how true rite? so I always be in my best effort to do things for others if i can. Don't care they like me or not, i still want to do something :)

Is it wrong to say out something u don't like?? i am a little bit low today. I feel hurt when i tell him i don't like the way a person treat him. and he just turn and snap on me... WAH... i was a little freak off and down coz he say i fan, a zi a cho... bla bla bla... wow.... u know me lah next thingy... all floaded dee... dont want to listen more... say good bye and hangup and hold my boster tied and sleep with streamy eyes :~ lousy hooh... eventually slept ... then wake up in the morning still not feeling good... put up a nice make up... still not feeling good.. but isn't it good to have mom beside ?? my mom make me breakfast :P sweet... i feeling so lousy yet i still called to wake him. he didn't return my call. so i just let it be.

I especially hate gals when they breakup with their ex, still ask them to do this and that, knowing the other person will do it for them. I hate it more when the guy entertaining them. wah I don't like also cannot one meh, just my liking? If that guy tell me... actually i hate her but in other hand do things so much for her. i will get confused coz to me u either like someone or don't like them. Hmmm if the guy tell me (u know me and my ex still good friends, than i in other hand treat her more closely as a friend coz she is also my darling's friend )

so confused and hurt lah being snap at. Not that i condemn him or anything. some more he want to compare to me going to see galgal ... if i didn't see galgal before she past away i will really feel regret for the rest of my life loh. At least in my mind there is always the living, fatt lan cha gal gal :) ......... some more said i make him angry... say i crazy... wah the tears drop like no body business.... hai... don't care lah. take some air and relax... have to be happy ...

Prep for Beey Big Day

Hmmm.. i been busy, with meetings, with langkawi trip prep and with my darling's big day prep. hehe... as usual i always like to spend for someone i care for. Though it means going on Bread for months :P haha... well friends are treasures to me and i felts its worth it ...so ... i am saving up for my trip, nice dinner & pressy, and a nice pressy for my couple friend :P hehe.

14,15 July Godsis Elaine her friend Kumar and God Bro Chris and fience (1st time meeting them) come to visit. Too bad i can't spare time for dinner with them if not it could be fun coz they are all very knowledgeble business minded people and i always enjoy having nice conversation with them. Too bad loh.. too much things to do. forever busy Lis.. Boss said its actually no good to be too occupied. hmmm...

I kinda sad lah coz Angie can't go to langkawi with us. Budget hehe... coz she have tons of stuff in her bought list. heheh.... As for me... sometimes i go wild in spending. but sometimes not really. Depends loh. But everyone think the package is ok so .. ok loh..

I am so excited... its count down to darling's b'day infact tomorrow is his b'day but sad huh. i can't celebrate the axactday with him this yr coz big boss coming to penang oh.. hehe.. u can see Ms Ang set her hair really nice today preparing for tomorrow big day. I am sure she will be gorgeous tomorrow hehe... most people will be i guess. Hmm time to flash her diamonds around day haha :P as for me i am trying my best effort to be there... and i have only 1 hour to spare. Better than not going rite? hehe...

Hmmm Still headache on the option to find a nice place to bring my darling to celebrate his b'day but must not be pricy... Beey scold haha :P any one got any suggestion please shoot :) thanks all and have a nice day.

Gloomy Day.... add on with my grayish etire ...

Today. i wake up raining... just like what my heart is feeling... so i choosen my gray dress to match my gloom. I feel like souless some how... those hurtful words kept rewinding in my head...
As i stare outside my office... the dark cloud just flow off... and thanks God for a friend's joke and some advise on prayer... see he even draft a prayer for me ...

"Lord, please show me how to find the time to store your commands within my mind. As I turn my ear to Your wisdom, help me to apply my heart to doing things YOUR way. I know you are the giver of wisdom; help me to hear what you want me to learn even if I don't always understand Your ways, or why you allow certain things to happen in my life. I want to trust you with my whole heart. Please help me. I know that as I trust in You, You have promised me that You will make my paths straight. Thank You. Amen"

and he told me what a marriage life should be and bla bla.. funny hooh.. his not married and he tell me this. Compare it 1 yr ago his not like that at all. But as usual as he does he will always give me his philosopher type of encouragement haha. Thanks pal. Well the after marriage thingy is really funny hehe. :)

I even have a session with my boss, wow.. which is encouraging and touch.

i am still feeling really down. it will take longer to patch this heart of mine this time. i hope someone can understand.

a little sunshine, a little freedom and some flowers make a great day :)

I pic this photo from one of the flickr people. Its really beautiful. Hmmm ... i felt even a 2 weeks life insect, God cloth them most beautifully each with their distinct beauty... and i am sure, though i suffer along in life i have my times of enjoyment, happiness, love, problems, constraint and loose of freedom, being condem and so fort... Hmmm what inspire me most was Jesus's Love for me and wanting to follow his footstep was most difficult one.

I realised in life u can't please everyone. Hmmm but you still own ur self ur own preference. But what life gift you and others things is just another side of life... I ponder, feeling little bit upset ... again and again... i been facing big things that i am so scared to make the decision coz it means once i have decided i have to live with it for the rest of mylife. its tough u know... But all i need is some time, some gentle encouragement and words, some patience as i am really slow in decision making, and lots of support as i am a emotional soul. Hmm again again.. all i get from him was "Sorry i can't change", "I am bored about this topic i have more important things to look into" hmmm sad lah. Sometimes i wish he can at least respect some of my preference as most of the time i have respect his decision.

Sometimes wish to just drop everything and just go travel. See the world. Going with who and do what just don't care. (ofcourse no elegal and no hurting any party lah) .... so confused some times.

please God give me this little freedom to drop everything in times, and some flowers to brighten my days ;)