Not expecting on my B'day

Tomorrow is my b'day. I never taught anyone will ever notice i stop blogging. Well at least 2 people does and from their feedback hmmm they care about me ... thanks guys. Appreciate you guys as my friends.

Yup i am not going to expect anything this b'day.... no dinner, or lunch celebration haha.. friends that are very dear are all busy with their schedule and as for me i have a full day work from 8:30 - 9pm.... thats about what b'day is this year.

Well i do feel a little bit down as being one self would dreams of having lots of lots of friends and wanting all those surprises and yup that conclude b'day is important to me. And i appreciate my bf taking the time to pick up a gift for me and raping them up one by one with gold and silver rapper with dark beautiful ribbons. thats sweet rite? hehe... but he sort of gave it to me in the wrong place and time and it kinda blow the excitement and guess what? silly me, i forgotten to give him that big hug and kiss haha to thank him for that... hmm i'll remember to do it surprising him next time seeing him. hehe.

I never imagine how important emotional inteligent is until last weekend seminar by Pastor Leslie and his wife. And realising how empty i am... and lonely do make me feel down. I never taught of what my boss said affect life... hmm now i realised how important it is to love urself, value the things u love, and care, giving that special time for urself and spending time with urself. Just Yourself. Hmmm what makes me who i am was all because how less my family care and focus on me but i can break that cycle by learning to appreciate myself and learning about myself. Hmmm i guess that start from Last monday, where i try to take the effort to greet my coleague regardless what i will expect from them. Cool face? Smile? neglecting face? or don't care face? don't care.... if someone need help be there and learn to care about what happen to their life. one thing i haven't acchieve and i what i want to do is build this relationship with Jesus further where to spend more time reading my bible and doing my devotion. Keeping a prayer journal is next in my list which i have again one thingy left there... Pray for me guys. I have more to work on myself. Support me if u can ya. I will try my best :)

U know what, out of 2 marriage 1 fails even divorce doesn't happen marriage can be having 2 people living parallel life but not connecting and growing. Its so scary when i heared of this. But there is hope. I don't know those couple who go to church together do have lower rate of divorce, and those couple who pray together also have even less. the statistic goes to 1150 change of divorce. Hmmm Family is the most important thingy in mylife. I didn't grow up in a perfect family and i too have myshare of defects from where i come from. But remembe friends it doesn't matter where u from the most important is ur willingness to change. and for things to change u have to change first and it always start from ourself.

So this new year, i wanted to focus more on myself so i can be a better person to be able to give more for people around me.